Who Really Killed Jesus?

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For over 2000 years priests, theologians, and scripture scholars have argued over who killed Jesus.  For the better part of those 2000 years, the Jews have been blamed for Jesus’ death.  Only recently, with the advent of authentic scripture scholarship have the Jews been let off the hook with the blame being placed on the shoulders of either the Romans or a few select members of the Jewish temple leadership – specifically the Chief Priests, Pharisees and Sadducees.  The truth is neither the Romans nor the Jews killed Jesus –


We did.


Scripture is actually quite clear on this subject.  When Jesus’ followers had an opportunity to defend their teacher, they chose silence.  When Pontius Pilate gave the crowd an opportunity to choose whether Jesus or Barabbas would die, they demanded Jesus’ death. Whether we believe the veracity of these stories or not, Jesus’ disciples, the crowd; those who originally charged Jesus with heresy and then condemned him to die; and those who carried out these orders; represent every single one of us –


When we choose fear over love.


Jesus was a man who came to realize that love was the remedy to the violence, hatred, ignorance, and injustices that arise out of the human condition when people are living in fear.  Jesus came to know love as the way through the fear that is inherent within the human condition.  Jesus then sought to teach others how to choose love over the fear with which they had grown accustomed.  And then…..we killed him for it. 


Why in the world would we kill a man who only sought to teach us how to love?  The answer is simple – because human beings are lazy.  We do not want to do the really hard work of healing our fears.  We do not want to take responsibility for our behaviors and the fears that drive those behaviors.  It is sooooo much easier to point the finger of blame at someone else than it is to take responsibility for the unhealed wounds within us.  It is easier to remain in what we know than to embrace the change that comes from healing our wounds. It is easier to hate than it is to do the work of healing our fears so that we can do the only thing Jesus asked us to do:  LOVE.


We are the ones who killed Jesus and we kill him again every time we choose fear over love, hatred over compassion, ignorance over knowledge, violence over peace, judgment over understanding.  Love is not a privilege – it is a choice. 


Choose love.

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Celebrating Mary Magdalene

Mary Magdalene is the only one identified to have completed the full course of Jesus’ teachings and was initiated as co-equal partner and Beloved with Christ. It was to Mary whom Jesus first revealed his resurrected/Christed Self and it was Mary he commissioned to share the good news with the other disciples and who he ordained to continue his work in his stead.

The Feast of Mary Magdalene is celebrated on July 22nd every year and in honor of her coming feast day, we have many exciting offerings to share with you:

LIVE online Course starting July 31:

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FREE Feast of the Magdalene Service:

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Magdalene Mini-Summit with Lauri Lumby, Renee Starr and other experts on the Magdalene:

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Enlightenment Means Being Fully Human

Our Western culture has done a great disservice to the idea of enlightenment. As is often the case in Western culture, that which is meant to invite us deeper into the human experience has become a vehicle for escape.

Enlightenment is not about transcending the human experience so that one might always know peace and happiness, rejecting anything that might disturb that peace – especially that which might be emerging from within us. Instead, enlightenment is about being, and learning to be, fully human.

Enlightened people experience anger. Enlightened people grieve in the face of loss.  Enlightened people become resentful, frustrated, impatient, worried, anxious and afraid.  The difference is the way in which these emotions and experiences are expressed.  Those who are moving along the path of enlightenment have learned to recognize these feelings when they arise, honor them, and give themselves time and space for processing (either alone or with another).  Those who are not on this journey either reject or suppress these feelings within themselves, or they project these feelings onto another, in this, making themselves or the other the enemy.  Those on the path of enlightenment respond with loving compassion and presence.  Those, not on the path, react – typically in some negative or violent way.

Let’s use Jesus as an example: Jesus became angry when temple practices were financially benefitting the rich while taking from the poor.  Jesus became frustrated and impatient when Peter wanted to make him a king.  Jesus wept when he learned his friend Lazarus had died.  Jesus grieved when betrayed and abandoned by his closest friends. Jesus was terrified in the face of certain death.  He bargained with God, hoping to be spared his fate. He suffered pain. Jesus doubted and felt abandoned by God as he hung on the cross.

If Jesus felt all these things, then why should we expect anything different from ourselves? Enlightenment is not about escaping the human condition.  It is learning how to be fully human – to be fully present with it all and allowing it move through us.  As Jesus came to show us, it is in being fully human that we are truly free.

(A little aside…..be very suspicious of anyone who tells you they are enlightened. Humility is the true mark of enlightenment, and an enlightened person would never claim this for themselves for they know that enlightenment is not something to be attained.)


The “Church” of the Magdalene

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Mary, called Magdalene (a title meaning “Great Tower”), more than any of the other apostles, understood, embodied and then went on to live out the teachings of Jesus. “Healed of seven demons,” Mary learned, through Jesus’ guidance, how to transcend and then heal the perceived separation between herself and the Divine along with all the resulting fears of this perceived separation.  In this, Mary achieved self-realization and became self-actualized – empowered to harness her own unique giftedness for the sake of her own fulfillment and then used these gifts in service to the betterment of the world.  Because Jesus has accomplished this for himself, he was then able to show Mary the way.  Jesus then empowered Mary, after his death, to continue this work in his stead.  This is what Mary went on to do.  Unfortunately, Mary’s story was left on the editing floor and no one knew the extent of the mission and ministry of the “church” Jesus founded through Mary Magdalene – until now.

Thanks to the discovery of Mary’s own gospel, and others that report of her prominence among the apostles and her role as the bearer of Jesus’ “secret” teachings, we now get a glimpse into the “church” that Jesus originally intended – a church that wasn’t a church at all, but was in fact, a mystery school – a place for higher level, esoteric learning, where participants are supported in knowing a deeply intimate relationship with the Divine of their understanding, then called into Oneness with that Divine so that they might realize the fullness of their human/Divine potential. Jesus, supported his followers in knowing what he had come to know within himself, and then empowered them to go out and do the same for others.  It seems that Mary, called Magdalene, is the only one who got this and was the only one who succeeded in bringing Jesus’ initial vision to fruition.

The “Church” of the Magdalene (if we can even call it that), seeks to continue the work that Jesus began and was then continued through Mary Magdalene.

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Who Are the Magdalenes?

We are the Magdalenes. We live and walk and work among you.  We come from all walks of life, from every tribe of the human race.  We are women.  We are men.  We are those who have completed the task of Love.  We have been supported in applying the original teachings of LOVE offered by and modeled by Jesus (and all other great spiritual teachers like him) – the teachings on Love which were then fulfilled through Mary, called Magdalene, and which has continued to show itself throughout history through those who have seen beyond the veil to the love concealed within.

We have come to know the Love that we are in our Oneness within ourselves, with the God of our understanding, with each other and with all of creation. In being open to this Love, we know no separation.  Love transcends all beliefs, all creeds, all nationalities, all genders, etc.  In this Love, there is no race but the human race.  There is no sexual orientation but love.  There is no nation, only one world.  There is no religion – only love. Love is all there is and Love is all we work to see and to know. Any perceived division is only a temporary veil over the love that has not yet been fully realized.  When division arises, we seek out the wound that is at its core, and support the healing of that wound wherever possible, as Jesus and Mary, called Magdalene, did before us.

For two thousand years we have been concealed among you, waiting.  At this critical juncture in human evolution, we come forth to be seen and to be known so that you might find hope in a world that is dying and faith in a new world that is seeking to be born.

We are your teachers, your guides, your mirror. Through our eyes you are seen as Love and in our eyes, you see that Love.  From this Love you will either turn away in fear, or, come forward in Love.  Either way, we love you for who you are and for the path you have chosen, for we have come to know that even when we choose fear, this too is a choice for Love.  As the prophet once said, “In you, darkness and light are but one.”  Of course, we hope that your choice will be for Love, because we have seen the fruits of this Love.

In this Love, we have found our unique purpose through our Divine gifts, which we then utilize for the sake of our own fulfillment and then in service to the betterment of the world. In this, you will find us using our gifts in all walks of life whether we are mother, father, teacher, minister, physician, healer, counselor, businessperson, athlete, entertainer, artist, banker, accountant, educator, administrator, etc. etc. etc. There are no limits as to how or where we can apply the Love that we know, for this Love is infinite and universal.  It is this life of meaning and purpose that too shall be yours when you make the choice for Love.

But even more than meaning and purpose, the promise of Love is peace. In the depths of the Love that we are, we know a deep and abiding peace.  This is “the peace that surpasses all understanding,” and which allows us to navigate the twists and turns, ups and downs, joys and sufferings of the human condition.  While fear is always present as a consequence of choosing the human condition, Love provides the key to finding our way through that fear.  It is here that we come to know the “kingdom of God within” that Jesus promised – not in some heaven light years away, but right here, in the midst of the human experience.  It is for the sake of this purpose that we are here, to help you know what those “who have eyes to see” have come to known – the Love that has been here all along!

We are the Magdalenes. Our mission and purpose is Love – the Love that is YOU!


Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS, is the founder of the Temple of the Magdalene and the creator and facilitator of the Magdalene Priest/ess Training Program.  Learn more about becoming a Priest/ess of the Magdalene HERE.

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The Magdalene Priesthood

The Magdalene Priesthood reclaims and restores the original priesthood modeled by Jesus, who became Christ, and which was fulfilled through his most devoted disciple, co-equal ministry partner, and Beloved, Mary, called Magdalene.

The Magdalene Priesthood is not about hierarchy, neither is it patriarchal nor clerical in nature. The Magdalene Priesthood is grounded in the egalitarian model favored by Jesus – one in which every individual is honored as uniquely holy and sacred and where no one person rules over another. The Magdalene priesthood seeks only to serve the common good of the all, not the privilege of the few.

The Magdalene Priesthood does not set anyone apart as the intermediary between ourselves and the God of our understanding. Instead, women and men called to this priesthood serve as supportive guides and teachers, empowering you in a directly intimate and personal relationship with your own God.  The God of your understanding may appear as male, female, as Presence, Essence, Spirit, Love, nameless or faceless.  The Magdalene Priesthood understands that the Divine reveals itself to each of us in our own unique way and according to our own unique temperament and needs and honors this unique revelation as holy.

In the Magdalene Priesthood, salvation is not about appeasing a jealous and wrathful god. Neither is it about earning our heavenly reward in the hereafter.  Instead, salvation is known by an increasing inner experience of contentment and peace achieved through years of diligent attention to the Source of love and a disciplined practice of turning away from and moving through the fear that tries to keep us from this love.  This is the Kingdom of God about which Jesus spoke, which can only be found within.

Mary Magdalene preaching and teaching

Those called to the Magdalene Priesthood have been empowered to name and claim their own unique giftedness and have been empowered to use these gifts, first, for the sake of their own fulfillment, and then in service to the betterment of the world. As such, priests and priestesses of the Magdalene serve in whatever capacity they feel called.  Some live out their priesthood as teachers, healers, mothers, fathers, artisans, activists, advocates, scholars, entertainers, protectors of the land, peacemakers, reformers, prophets, serving the needs of the less fortunate, business owners, politicians, etc. etc. etc.  There is no limit as to how the Magdalene Priesthood might be fulfilled.  Additionally, there is nothing that might set a priest or priestess of Magdalene apart from another, except perhaps the love that radiates from their being.  As such, there are not special “outfits” to be worn. Priests and priestesses of the Magdalene follow the example of Jesus and Mary Magdalene by wearing clothing similar to those they serve.

LOVE is the sole mission of the Magdalene Priesthood. Those called to this priesthood have come to know the love that they are in their Oneness with the Divine – the same Oneness that Jesus came to know within himself and then supported his disciples in coming to know within themselves.  Mary, called Magdalene, mastered this love and then went out to empower others in knowing this Love, as Jesus, as Christ, ordained her to do.  The Magdalene Priesthood fulfills the Magdalene succession by reclaiming and restoring the ancient and original priesthood modeled by Jesus and fulfilled by Mary, called Magdalene.


Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, MATS, has accepted the call to be a vessel through which the Priesthood of the Magdalene might be restored. If you believe you may be called to the Priesthood of the Magdalene Learn more HERE.


*also published on http://www.authenticfreedomacademy.com


Honoring Mary Magdalene

Today, July 22nd, has been designated The Feast of Mary Magdalene by the Catholic Church.  Please join us in celebrating this amazing woman who became the fulfillment of Jesus’ message of love.  Please join us for the FREE online service which you may participate in anytime between now and July 20th.  Click on the image below to join:

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Please also enjoy this beautiful reflection on Mary Magdalene and her feast day from my friend and fellow-Magdalene, Kathy Walczyk:

Last month the pope uplifted Mary Magdalene. He officially elevated the day of her memorial to a full Feast Day in the Catholic Church. In making this change, the pope calls her an apostle to the apostles.

In a letter announcing the change, a Vatican secretary wrote, this decision means one “should reflect more deeply on the dignity of women, the New Evangelization, and the greatness of the mystery of Divine Mercy.”

We get a glimpse of Mary Magdalene through the male writers of the gospel. What would women writers have said about her? About Jesus? What would Mary say to us, today, if she could speak?

Mary Magdalene: She walked upright, with dignity when she was with him. She carried her own light as she walked alongside of Jesus. When she was with him she was included and worthy of discipleship. Like others treated as second-class citizens, Jesus uplifted those deemed unworthy by society and by religion. Was she ridiculed and judged? Was she allowed to speak, and did she ask questions?

She followed him to the cross and stayed, when the others had left. She watched him suffer for she knew what it was like to suffer. She watched eyes look upon him in judgment, for she knew the look of judgment herself.

Did she sleep that night, the night after Jesus died? Was she afraid, alone, or in shock? What gave her the courage to risk the journey to the tomb?

At the tomb, was it tears that clouded her vision or was it the heartache of loosing her teacher, her friend, her savior? What was it that made it difficult to recognize his face? Jesus called her by her name, Mary. What if, it were one of us there with Jesus after he had risen? If he called our name, what would awaken inside of us? Would we recognize him?

She went on her way to deliver his message and her testimony. Did the others believe her? Did she run with excitement or walk with trepidation? Did the soldiers try to stop her?

We do not know what became of Mary Magdalene. Without Jesus’s earthly presence, did the others include her, uplift her, and give her responsibility worthy of her calling? Did she continue to walk in dignity and with purpose?

Today we read of Jesus’ choice in Mary. He elevated her not by curing illness but by asking her to serve his people. She is today’s example. She is an inspiration to people called to go the extra mile, to stay when others leave, to go against the grain, to seek out what we cannot yet see and to believe despite our disbelief.


KathyWalczykKathy Walczyk’s specialty is challenging you to see your beauty and potential. She facilitates this discovery by supporting your spiritual growth through one-on-one mentoring and group classes.  The tools she utilizes include Authentic Freedom and creative expression, including photography.  Kathy is also an advocate for spiritual responses to trauma – specifically clergy sexual abuse.  Her undergraduate is in Art and Photography and she hold a Master’s Degree in Theological Studies and Pastoral Ministry.  She has completed extensive study in the areas of spirituality, sexuality, trauma, and healing.  She lives and work in Green Bay, Wisconsin.  Kathy can be reached at wals4@aol.com or (920) 609-2657.  Her website is www.spiritualmiddleground.com