Who Really Killed Jesus?

Cursed be the one who trusts in human beings…

Jeremiah 17: 5

For centuries human beings have argued over who killed my beloved, Jesus. Some have argued that it was the Jews….and many Jews have perished as a result of this accusation.  Many argue that it was the Romans and that Jesus, like Gandhi and Martin Luther King, Jr. was killed for political reasons.  Many of my brothers in Christ suffered and then perished as a result of this perceived conflict. The truth is it was neither the Jews nor the Romans who killed my Beloved.  It was human beings.

Standing in the crowd as Jesus was being tried before Pilate in the company of the Chief Priests of the Temple, it was not Pilate who condemned Jesus to death. It was not the jealousy or insecurity of the Chief Priests that signed his death sentence.  It was the crowd.  Even when given the chance to free Jesus, the crowd refused.  Why?  Because it was easier to sign Jesus’ death warrant than to live the life he called them to live. People killed Jesus because they were afraid – afraid that if what he spoke was truth, then the world they had come to know might come to an end.

In this, they were absolutely correct. Being healed of the fears that plague the human experience would have changed them, and through them, it would have changed their world. What they failed to see and believe, however, was that if they had chosen to live as Jesus had called them to live, their lives would have become better.  They would be happier, more content, their needs would be met.  They would know love and the world could finally live in peace.

But alas, it was not to be so. 2000 years later, the love and peace that Jesus embodied and sought to share with humanity is still denied.  Humanity, it seems, is incapable of seeing past their fears, their tribal beliefs, their cultural norms, the religious/political doctrines to which they cling, to witness the peaceful kingdom that is already present within and among them, if they would only bother to lay down their swords long enough to learn how to LOVE.  Instead, humanity continues to languish in the “sins” of separation – racism, prejudice, sexism, nationalism, the desire for power, greed, gluttony, sloth, avarice, jealousy and pride.  As humanity clings to its separation, millions of people are dying, afraid, starving, homeless, abused, beaten, oppressed, imprisoned, made to fight wars that are not their own.  For every person who dies unnecessarily another part of humanity’s soul dies along with them…..and Jesus dies again.

Jesus described this in the parable reported by our brother Matthew:

The King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world.  For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in,  I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’

“Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’

 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’


This is how it is with Christ. Each and every human being is a reflection of Christ.  Each and every human being has a spark of the Christ light (love) within them.  Every single person is a living, breathing, child of God.  So when you (especially those who call themselves Christian) harm another human being, when you deprive them of their basic needs, when you support programs and policies that strip them of basic human dignity, when you deny them what the need, not only to live, but also to thrive, you are saying NO to the man you claim as your teacher and savior.  Whatsoever you do to your fellow human beings, you are doing to Jesus.  And when you cause your brother harm, or deprive your sister of what she needs to survive, then you are killing Jesus again.

Humanity killed Jesus and continues to kill him every time they choose fear over love, hate over compassion, greed over generosity, gluttony over sharing, pride over humility, sloth over action, etc. etc. etc.

Humanity killed Jesus and every day kills him again.

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Mary Magdalene’s Plea to the World

My whole entire life, there is only one thing I have ever wanted from you…and that was to be heard.

To have my needs heard so they could be met.

Not just the basic needs for food, clothing and shelter…

But the deeper needs:

  • The need to feel loved.
  • The need to feel safe.
  • The need to feel seen and accepted for who I really am…..all of me.
  • The need to feel supported in all I hoped and dreamed for…especially my vision for the world.


To be heard beyond the physical hearing to the deepest levels and to feel held and supported there:

  • when I was afraid but too afraid to speak it.
  • when I was feeling alone but dared not admit it.
  • when I felt abandoned, rejected, condemned but thought I might die for revealing it.

When I was puzzled because I didn’t fit in, for the simple “infraction” of daring to speak the truth.


To be heard beyond that which is carried by sound:

  • when I felt the excruciating pain of being an outsider and the loneliness of always having to find my place in another new world.
  • when I was poor and in need of help.
  • when I was excruciatingly alone in those years of abuse, where I was silenced and scorned …and when it frightened me to death.
  • during the many nights I cried myself to sleep knowing I was completely and utterly alone with not one soul to help me, but myself.
  • during the decades of existing in this world only by the sheer force of will.
  • during the dark days when it took every force of that will to pull myself out of bed to face another dark day.
  • when I found the courage to choose another path, but was terrified nonetheless.

In those fleeting moments of joy when the world stood still and for just that single moment all was right in the world and I could shout to the world that the words he spoke really were true and that everything was indeed made of love.


During the excruciating heartache and loss that nearly broke me a second time…but which against all odds I survived….and after that loss, having to find a new path with absolutely no map to guide me, in a world that was unable to hear the voice of a woman who spoke only the words given to her which were the words of love.


But now, centuries have past and I find that my desire still remains. In a world that is deaf to the call of love, seeking only words that flatter and praise, in a world that has turned its back on the intuitive sensibilities of women, preferring the warring talk of men, in a world that seeks after the material, condemning anything that might speak of sacrifice so that the needs of all might be met, I find still all I really want is to be heard:


To be heard for who I am.

To be heard for the gifts I bring into the world

And to be heard for the message of love that was once shown to me and that I was asked, in the most painful moment of my life, to carry forth into the world.


Will it be in this lifetime that I am finally heard or will humanity perish because of its inability to hear?






Slaughter of the Innocents

My dear sisters and brothers,

Like you, my heart is broken over the recent school shooting – the death of innocent children and the teachers who died trying to protect them.  My heart is broken over the plight of the young boy, troubled to begin with, shattered by the death of his adoptive parents, and then abandoned by an imperfect system that failed to get him the help he so desperately needed.  My heart is broken over a broken system that allows a fragile and broken child to purchase and then use a military assault rifle. My heart is broken over how these kinds of experiences are becoming the “new normal,” and how instead of bringing people together to change the cultural system in which these kinds of tragedies become normative, it creates separation and further division.  Everybody wants to point the finger of blame while pontificating from the perch of their favorite soapbox – gun control, parenting, mental illness, politics, cultural violence, etc. etc. etc.  It is easy to lose hope in the face of all this division and it is impossible to find common ground when everywhere around you people are either defending or blaming.  In this, it is easy to get lost in the details, forgetting to see the larger picture:

The rash of mass shootings is simply another symptom of a culture on the verge of its own collapse. 

That which has been built on fear, power and control, and in this case, patriarchal/hierarchical fear, power and control, is quickly imploding upon itself.  The closer we come to its ultimate death, the worse things will become.  Knowing this does not lessen the impact, but it does help us to gain a wider perspective as we continue to do the work of

  • Being hospice to a dying world.
  • Planting the seeds for the birth of something new.

Historically this has always been true.  Leading up to the collapse of what has been and which no longer serves is an increase in violence, death, devastation and separation.  Scripture provides two such examples, sadly also involving the slaughter of innocent children:

 The king of Egypt said to the Hebrew midwives, one of whom was named Shiphrah and the other Puah, “When you act as midwives to the Hebrew women, and see them on the birthstool, if it is a boy, kill him; but if it is a girl, she shall live.” Then Pharaoh commanded all his people, “Every boy that is born to the Hebrews you shall throw into the Nile, but you shall let every girl live.”

Exodus 1: 16, 22

When Herod saw that he had been tricked by the wise men, he was infuriated, and he sent and killed all the children in and around Bethlehem who were two years old or under, according to the time that he had learned from the wise men. Then was fulfilled what had been spoken through the prophet Jeremiah:

 “A voice was heard in Ramah,
wailing and loud lamentation,
Rachel weeping for her children;
she refused to be consoled, because they are no more.”

Matthew 2: 16 – 18

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Massacre of the Innocents by Peter Paul Rubens

In both of these accounts, something new (Moses and Jesus) was coming into the world.  The old regime was approaching the end of its usefulness.  What had once been benevolent and life-giving had turned to privilege, violence and hatred.  Where there had once been harmony, peace and abundance, there now was only separation, unrest and lack.  At the end of these reigns of terror came those who brought with them the promise of something new (Moses and Jesus), but those who had something to lose sought to put an end to that which might hasten their demise.  The way they sought to put an end to the new was through violence.

It seems in 5000 years, nothing much has changed.  And yet….as proved true for both Moses and Jesus – that which is made of fear has no power in the face of that which is made of love.  Moses was successful in leading his people out of the land of slavery and toward their eventual arrival in “the promised land.”  While Moses led  a small tribe of Hebrews into a new world, Jesus’ teachings provide the opportunity for all of humanity to choose a world defined by love instead of the fear that has become its norm.

Today as we grieve the most recent slaughter of the innocents, we are invited to look beyond our fears, our personal opinions, our favorite soapbox and remember that this – especially the tangled web of debates – is another symptom of a world in its death throes.  The patriarchal/hierarchical world based in fear, power and control is dying.  The world that benefits a gluttonous and greedy few and leaves the rest empty is falling away.  As it clings to what is left of its life it will struggle, fight, and scream to maintain what it has known.  The rash of violence we are experiencing, the divisive debates, the failure to embrace civility are all examples of its death rattle.

There can be no mistake, that world is dying…..and for many it cannot come soon enough.  And yet it is not dead yet.  As adults it is our job to be hospice to this dying world.  Witnessing to its death.  Comforting those affected by its death.  Praying for its release.  Sending it on its way.  As we are being hospice, our children are waiting in the wings, coming together as one in tolerance and love, to build the new world.  Let us welcome them for they are the hope we’ve been waiting for.


How Mary Magdalene Saves the World

Christian doctrine tells us that Jesus saved us through his dying and rising, transmuting the “sin” of humanity through his sacrifice, thereby eliminating the separation between humanity and God. Whether or not we literally believe this to be true (personally, I have another idea of how Jesus “saves”), it is a metaphor that has informed and formed the development of Western civilization and that of any other culture touched by its influence. As a culture that has embraced sacrifice and death as the way to salvation, we have entirely missed the point of the human experience – the point being the human experience itself.  In focusing only on sacrifice and death, we have forgotten how to live.

If Jesus saved us through his sacrifice, death and resurrection,

Mary Magdalene saves us through her living.

Enter Mary Magdalene. If Jesus saved us through his sacrifice, death and resurrection, Mary Magdalene saves us through her living. She lived the fullness of the human experience and unlike Jesus, was not released from her suffering by death.  She suffered the pain of abuse, rejection, condemnation, ridicule, trauma, loss, homelessness, expulsion, banishment, and every other form of human pain.  Death did not relief her of her suffering.  Instead, she had to find a path through the suffering and to the liberation that was waiting on the other side of the challenge.  In finding her way through the suffering, Mary was healed and transformed, growing in strength and courage because of her ability to find her way through the suffering.  Mary Magdalene provides for us an example of human resilience.  We do not worship her for her martyrdom, for she did not die for anyone’s sin.  Instead, we see in her the way to make it through the inherent challenges of the human experience while paving the way for others to do the same.

Saving the World through Our Living

This is the call of the Magdalene – especially for those called into her service. We are not here to save others through our death. We are here to save ourselves and provide an example for others while transmuting the very path itself.  This is the “magic” of the Magdalene priesthood.  When we allow ourselves to be fully present to the challenges that life will hand us and use the tools we have been given to find our way through those challenges, we are strengthened, we grow in courage, we are healed of our wounds and we are transformed.  In this transformation, we are better able to enjoy the sublime moments of life – appreciating the beauty and wonder, finding joy in the simple things, embracing the ecstasy of love, reveling in the banquet of life.  We learn how to love, how to find peace, contentment and joy.  And we are changed.  As we are changed, and so are all those around us – our friends and loved ones, our family, and every single person we meet along the way.  Through the example of the Magdalene and the tools she left behind, we learn how to live and in learning how to live we are saved and the whole world with us.

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Holding Space for the Divine Masculine

As Mary Magdalene was the Divine Feminine to Jesus’ Divine Masculine, and likely supported Jesus in his own awakening, so too are all women bearing the Magdalene call invited to support the rebirthing of the Divine Masculine in our world.  Below is my vow.  If you feel so-called, I invited you to do the same. 

A Vow to the Divine Masculine

In addition to the vow I have made to myself to be fully born,

I vow to be a vessel through which

The Divine Masculine may find its place in our world.

I offer a safe space in which the Masculine

may lay down his sword

and reveal the tender places of his heart.

Where he might shed tears for his own wounds

and for the wounds of humanity.

Where he may be strengthened

in his commitment to birthing himself –

Birthing his own Divine Masculine:

Of courage and tenderness

Strength and vulnerability

Action and receptivity

Provision and protection

Compassion, understanding and love.

The way all men were meant to be

Before the unholy too its place.

As a Divine Feminine female,

I vow to be a vessel through which

The Divine Masculine may be born

As a queen welcoming her king,

And a goddess welcoming her god.

I offer my loving support to you

in the hope that one day

we might all be free.


I offer this as an invitation for all women. If you want to join me in this vow, please add your name in the comments section below, and then share this post on your social media sites, inviting your friends to do the same! 



What’s Love Got To Do With It: “Only Love-The Secret Teachings of Mary Magdalene” Book Review

Thank you to Kim Hageman for a beautiful review of one of my latest books, Only Love – The Secret Teachings of Mary Magdalene.  Read Kim’s review HERE. 


My Mary Magdalene Reading List

The following is my St. Mary Magdalene reading list (besides my own books of course) and the foundational literature which has supported the development of my work.  If your favorite Mary Magdalene book isn’t listed here, please include it in the comments section below!  Thanks!

My Mary Magdalene Reading List

Scholarly or Oral Tradition

Begg, Ean, The Cult of the Black Virgin, Chiron Publications, 2006.

Bourgeault, Cynthia, The Meaning of Mary Magdalene – Discovering the Woman at the Heart of Christianity, Shambhala Publications, 2010.

Douglas-Klotz, Neil, The Hidden Gospel: Decoding the Spiritual Message of the Aramaic Jesus, Quest Books, 1999.

Douglas-Klotz, Neil, Prayers of the Cosmos, Harper One 1993.

Eisler, Riane, The Chalice and the Blade, Harper Collins, 1987.

Eisler, Riane, Sacred Pleasure, Harper Collins, 1995.

Ericco, Rocco A. Setting a Trap for God: The Aramaic Prayer of Jesus, Unity Books, 1997.

Harvey, Andrew, Son of Man – The Mystical Path to Christ, Jeremy P. Tarcher, 1998.

Haskins, Susan, Mary Magdalene – Myth and Metaphor, Harcourt Brace & Company, 1993.

Hoeller, Stephan, Gnosticism – New Light on the Ancient Tradition of Inner Knowing, Quest Books, 2002.

King, Karen, L., The Gospel of Mary of Magdala – Jesus and the First Woman Apostle, Polebridge Press, 2003.

Leloup, Jean-Yves, Judas and Jesus – Two Faces of a Single Revelation, Inner Traditions, 2006.

Leloup, Jean-Yves, The Gospel of Mary Magdalene, Inner Traditions, 2002.

Leloup, Jean-Yves, The Gospel of Philip, Inner Traditions, 2003.

Leloup, Jean-Yves, The Gospel of Thomas, Inner Traditions, 2005.

Leloup, Jean-Yves, The Sacred Embrace of Jesus and Mary – The Sexual Mystery at the Heart of the Christian Tradition, Inner Traditions, 2005.

MacDermot, Violet, The Fall of Sophia – A Gnostic Text on the Redemption of Universal Consciousness, Lindisfarne Books, 2001.

Malachi, Tau, The Gnostic Gospel of St. Thomas – Meditations on the Mystical Teachings, Llewellyn Worldwide, 2004.

Malachi, Tau, Gnosis of the Cosmic Christ – a Gnostic Christian Kabbalah, Llewellyn Worldwide, 2005.

Malachi, Tau, Living Gnosis – A Practical Guide to Gnostic Christianity, Llewellyn Worldwide, 2005.

Malachi, Tau, St. Mary Magdalene – The Gnostic Tradition of the Holy Bride, Llewellyn Worldwide, 2006.

Marion, Jim, Putting on the Mind of Christ – The Inner Work of Christian Spirituality, Hampton Roads, 2000.

Pagels, Elaine, Beyond Belief – The Secret Gospel of Thomas, Random House, 2003.

Silva, Freddy, the Lost Art of Resurrection, Inner Traditions, 2014.

Starbird, Margaret, The Woman with the Alabaster Jar, Bear & Company, 1993.

Starbird, Margaret, The Goddess in the Gospels – Reclaiming the Sacred Feminine, Bear & Company, 1998.

Starbird, Margaret, Mary Magdalene – Bride in Exile, Bear & Company, 2005.


Fiction or Channeled Works:

Ferrini, Paul, I Am the Door, Heartways Press, 1999.

Heartsong, Claire, Anna – Grandmother of Jesus. S.E.E. Publishing, 2002.

Heartsong, Claire, Anna – the Voice of the Magdalenes, S.E.E Publishing, 2010.

Kenyon, Thomas & Sion, Judi, The Magdalen Manuscript, Tom Kenyon Orb, 2006.

McGowan, Kathleen, The Expected One, Touchstone, 2007.

McGowan, Kathleen, The Book of Love, Touchstone, 2010.

Pevehouse, Dolores, I, The Christ, Hampton Roads, 2000.

Wilson, Stuart, Essenes – Children of the Light, Ozark Mountain Publishing, 2005.

Wilson, Stuart & Prentis, Joanna, Power of the Magdalene, Ozark Mountain Publishing, 2008.



Recovering Catholics – 42.7 Million Strong

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The Second Largest Religious Denomination

A few years back, I learned that the second largest religious denomination in the United States (reported by PEW Research, second only to the Roman Catholic Church), is made up of non-practicing Catholics.  I sat down and did the math and the number of people who still call themselves Catholic, but who no longer attend mass on a regular basis is 42.7 million!  That is a HUGE number of people.  If you are reading this blog, you are likely one of those 42.7 million, or perhaps you were raised Catholic and no longer call yourself Catholic, so we can simply add you to this number and we might find that there are in fact 85.4 million Recovering Catholics in the United States. If that were the case, we would outnumber the active Roman Catholic population!!!


Who Cares?

You might ask yourself, “Who cares?”  Why…

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While religion has provided a great service to humanity, it has also done great harm. If you are one who has felt harmed, rejected, condemned, judged, ridiculed, stifled, silenced, by religion, you are not alone. In fact, the second largest “religious” denomination in the United States is made up of 42.7 million non-practicing Catholics – those who have left the Church because they no longer felt welcome or at home.  Perhaps like me, you are one of those.  Whatever it is that brings you to this class, “Healing Our Religious Wounds,” know that here you are welcome!  Through this course you will find acceptance, unconditional love and support for healing the wounds that you experienced at the hands of religious institutions or from those associated with that religion…

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I Know Why I’m Here


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I know why I’m here, and as we stand at the ending (THANK GOD) of 2017 and at the threshold of 2018, I find myself even more aware of who I am, my purpose in this life and all the resources that have shown up along the way to make up the unique gift and call that I bring to the world. This is a calling so unique (and yet so simple and so universal) that words almost always elude me.  I have yet to find “the elevator speech” which adequately describes who I am and what I do.  What I do is kind of like my mom’s “Everything but the Kitchen Sink” soup…..there’s a little bit of this, a little bit of that, a pound or two of this, and a splash of that……all of which comes together to make the most amazing winter soup in the whole wide world.

On one hand, I am here to be and fulfill the Magdalene Mission.

What the heck does that mean????? Again, like my mom’s soup, it is a little bit of this and a little bit of that:

  1. Restoring Mary Magdalene to her rightful place in the Christian narrative, and in doing so, restoring women to their rightful place in the continuing mission of love, and in doing so, restoring the lost feminine to what once honored and empowered women equally with men but which very quickly sold the feminine out for the patriarchal norm and which then systematically sought out the destruction of anything that resembled feminine power.
  2. In restoring the feminine – reclaiming the INNER aspects of Jesus’ mission of love. Inner aspects which include: the primacy of contemplative prayer and meditation, the journey of self-knowledge, the process of becoming self-actualized (coming to know our unique giftedness and calling and being empowered to use these gifts for the sake of our own fulfillment and for the betterment of the world), which honors the inner authority (God) over any outside perceived authority and over any laws made up by man, which understood ritual as a vehicle of celebration and worship and not as a requirement for salvation.
  3. In reclaiming the inner – restoring egalitarian, collaborative, cooperative models of leadership and in the building up of community. Understanding the purpose of community to be that which supports and empowers individuals in self-realization, knowing that in doing so, the community and therefore the world are enriched and made better.

In doing all of the above, our understanding of the mission of Jesus is completely transformed.

  1. No longer do we believe that Jesus came to start a new religion, or to create anything that might separate one human being from another.
  2. We come to understand that Jesus’ mission had nothing to do with religion, tribe, nationality, gender, etc. but had to do with only one thing….and that one thing is UNIVERSAL.
  3. That one thing is LOVE.
  4. This is not a co-dependent kind of love that has anything to do with seeking approval or guidance from outside of us (including “God”), but is only found within in our intimate relationship with our highest self and that which some might call “God.”

When you mix this all together and put it in the crockpot, like my mom’s “Everything but the Kitchen Sink” soup, it boils down to one thing:  LOVE.

I am here for the purpose of Love.

And so are you.

How are you supporting yourself in living out your purpose?