To See or Not to See – That is the Question!

For my entire life I’ve been able to see. As it turns out, this gift of sight began even before my birth when I was given a vision of what this life would look like and my fetal self said, “Hell-no, I won’t go!” and turned tail and ran.  “Thanks” to a team of surgeons and some good old fashioned ether, my tiny body was wrested from my mother’s womb, yanked out by my left foot as I clung helplessly to my mother’s pelvis, “No mommy!  Please don’t make me go!”

My cries were in vain as I was yanked from the soft, warm hiding place of my mother’s womb into the glaring light of the surgical theatre, my furrowed brow meeting the blurry gaze of the surgeon, anesthesiologist, nurses and the gallery of medical students peering back in rapt wonder over the first and likely last feet first vaginal birth they would ever see. My mother had no eyes for me as she slept under the paralytic haze of general anesthesia.  (Thank God they don’t do that anymore!).  All I wanted in that moment was to feel my mother’s arms around me, mimicking the embrace of her womb assuring me it was going to be ok.  Instead, I was cold, blinded and hungry.  That bottle they shoved into my mouth felt wrong, strange, foreign.  “That’s not what my mother tastes like.” Instead, it gave me a tummy ache and a craving for sugar that seemed would never end.

But, this isn’t about my birth; it’s about my ability to see. As I mentioned before, even before I was born I could see.

I saw and I knew the truth.

I knew the human journey would be hard. I knew my own path would be harder still.  I wanted to say no (rather I should say my human self wanted to say no.  As is often the case, my Soul knew otherwise and at least in my case, the Soul always wins!)

Throughout my life this seeing and knowing has at once informed and inspired me while also causing me a fair heap of trouble.

For this seeing is many-fold:

I see people. Yes, I see dead people. But more importantly, I SEE living people.  I have the ability to REALLY see people – seeing past the masks they show to the world all the way to their Soul.  I see them for who they are, not for who they want others to see.  I see through all the ways they deceive themselves and therefore the people around them.  I see their fears, their deceit, their sins and compulsions.  I see who they really are and what I’ve learned is that many (if not most) don’t want to be seen.

My kindergarten teacher, for example, was seriously mentally ill. She beat us, locked us in closets, taped our mouths shut, threw us into fish tanks scattering its contents and broken class across the classroom floor.  I saw her for who she was and she hated me for it telling my parents, “At the end of the day, I’m not sure who has won, myself or Lauri.”  My mother in her wisdom responded, “I didn’t know kindergarten was supposed to be a battle!”

Then there was the priest whose true nature revealed itself to me the first minute I saw him. I knew he was hiding something and that the words that came out of him mouth didn’t match the person he really was.  He knew I saw him and he made quick business of getting rid of me – which he did.  As time has gone by, more and more people have seen him for who he is and his congregation is now the skeletal remains of a once thriving and happy community, while I happily minister to those who with his help (and the help of others like him), have left the Church behind.

You see, people don’t want to be seen – really seen. Instead, they want us to believe the person they’ve made themselves out to be and if we dare to look beneath the veil to what lies underneath, they turn tail and run – or make you out to be the enemy.

The latter I have found is more commonly true.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been made into the enemy – simply because of my ability to see, or accused of being judgmental for not giving people a chance or the benefit of the doubt.  But when I have given someone a chance, they’ve always proven me right.  My first impression, I have learned, is 100% accurate (while resisting the temptations to tell naysayers “I told you so!”)

“Discernment” I’ve been told is the name of my gift – the ability to know what is “of God” (truth) and what is not.

I also see the future. I came into this world knowing that this world was doomed. I saw its death and that death was confirmed in a dream I had at the tender age of 6!  I knew that this world was dying, but I also knew that this death was a choice and that we each individually have the power to choose and that if enough choose life over death, a new world would be born.  I then saw this story played out over and over and over again in my life knowing in every job, in every relationship, in every situation I found myself the choice between life and death.  I saw the portents and I spoke of these signs which mostly fell on deaf ears.  I then watched them die….one by one by one because of the choices they’d made.

Alas, a prophet is welcome nowhere – most especially not in his/her family, work place, place of higher learning, circle of friends, etc.

So what does one do with this gift of sight?

We sit in silent knowing of the destruction that is lying in wait, we act as witness to a dying world and we speak what we know, knowing it will mostly fall on deaf ears, except for the sacred few (who interestingly really know themselves!) who have ears to hear and eyes to see who together are secretly bringing forth the new world in the midst of the collapse of the old.

While this gift of sight has cost me dearly (spiritually, emotionally, mentally, physically and financially), I would not trade it for the world (this world or the one that is coming into being!). It is this gift of sight that has allowed me to survive a world I was not made for while leading me to the world I came to help bring forth.  This gift has helped lead me to the tools which supported the fulfillment of my Soul’s mission in this dying world and through which I could help others find theirs.  This gift has helped me to find my “tribe” and to discern the tricksters from the truth sayers.  This gift has steered me clear of anything that might try to dissuade me from my path.  And now, this gift is ushering me safely from this dying world into a new life in a world – the world I was born to bring forth and a world that is of my own making – one made wholly and entirely out of LOVE!

To see of not to see? I choose to see.


The Spiritual Law of Manifesting

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As we believe, so shall it be.

 In the popular book The Secret, and all the related pop-culture myths on manifestation, it is said that our thought governs our ability to get what we want.  In other words, “If we want something, all we need to do is think the right thoughts.”  In this mythology, the opposite is also true, “If you are not getting what you want, it is because you have thought the wrong thoughts.”

While there may be some truth to these myths in causal (3D/duality) consciousness, in the world of Unity Consciousness none of this is true. If you are already living in Unity consciousness (or at the least, holding the intention to live from a place of Oneness), if we even try to think our way into manifesting, it will fail and likely blow up in our face.

In Unity consciousness, manifesting what

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Withholding Our Gifts

I had an interesting interaction yesterday with an organization whose materials I have recommended to my students, specifically as supplemental resources (for purchase) in the What’s Your Magic course that is part of my Magdalene Priestess Training.  Apparently, they are no longer willing to share these resources with those outside their institutional membership – even when they stand to benefit financially for in sharing these resources.  When I inquired further and explained why I appreciate their resources, why I recommend them to my students, why my student’s would not be candidates for membership in their organization and why I would like to continue to share these resources (which would be a financial benefit to their organization), their response was “Best wishes to you.”

To say I was disappointed would be an understatement – not because my students would suffer for lack of these resources (which they won’t), but because the institution in question is unwilling to see past their self-imposed separation to the larger world that is in need of their gifts. This institution has been divinely gifted with a wisdom-filled and comprehensive tool for supporting people in discerning their gifts and how they might be called to share these gifts in the world.  These are tools that could benefit all of humanity, not just the few that belong to their membership.  Instead of being willing and open to find a way to share these gifts with all who might need them, they are hoarding them for themselves.  This makes me sad and I believe this was not what the Divine had intended when imparting these gifts on the creative leaders of this institution.

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After dwelling for a moment in righteous anger over the divine injustice of this situation, I was brought back to Authentic Freedom. The above perfectly describes several of the compulsions described in both my book and my course Authentic Freedom, but for our purposes here I will focus on just one:

GREED – withholding the gifts that God has given us, specifically the gifts that we have been given, not only for our own benefit or fulfillment, but gifts we’ve been given that we are meant to share for the sake of the betterment of the world.

Each and every one of us is uniquely gifted to be a vessel of Divine love, compassion, providence, wisdom, knowledge, mercy, and the gifts we have been given are meant to be shared. As Jesus said:

You are the salt of the earth. But if salt loses its taste, with what can it be seasoned?  It is no longer good for anything but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.  You are the light of the world.  A city set on a mountain cannot be hidden.  Nor do they light a lamp and then put it under a bushel basket; it is set on a lampstand, where it gives light to all in the house.  Just so, your light must shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your heavenly Father.”  MT 5

The gifts we have been given are not meant to be withheld. Instead, they are meant to be generously shared with all who might be in need of these gifts and who might benefit from them.  Sometimes (often) those who might benefit from our gifts and those who are in need of our gifts do not fit into tight categories of membership.  If we are to truly be vessels of the Divine as we are so-called, we have to expand our view beyond what we currently know or beyond how we currently define ourselves.  We need to be open to stepping outside of our self-imposed boxes to seeing and hearing those who are in need of our gifts, and open to finding ways to make them available to those who need them.

When we generously share the gifts we’ve been given with others, these gifts come back to us a hundred-fold. This is the law of Divine nature and the results of sharing our gifts.

I am saddened by the institution who wants to keep themselves small in the withholding of their gifts, and I am grateful for the resources I have been given in the development of the Authentic Freedom protocol for supporting others in knowing the expansive freedom that God intended.

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Woman Most Wild – Book Review

I feel like I have read every book on the market on witch craft, Wicca, Celtic magic, druid practices, magic, magik, magick, goddess worship, and the neo-pagan movement, but none of these have done what Danielle Dulsky has done through her book Woman Most Wild – Three Keys to Liberating the Witch Within. In this sumptuous, scrumptious, sensuous (meaning engaging all the senses), book, Danielle has rescued the inherent, intuitive magic of women from the dogma and doctrine that has continually tried to imprison it.  Danielle has done what no one else (with the possible exception of Phyllis Curott) has been able to do – transcend the very “religions” who either claim women’s power as their own, or demonize it as the work of the devil.  Instead, Danielle makes feminine power available and acceptable to every woman without making them feel as if they have to discard their personal beliefs for the magic they hold within.  Thank you Danielle for this beautiful book!  It is a delight to read, informative and empowering.  I highly recommend this book!

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About the author:

Danielle Dulsky, author of Woman Most Wild, is an artist, yoga teacher, energy worker, and founder of Living Mandala Yoga teacher training programs. She leads women’s circles, Witchcraft workshops, and energy healing trainings and lives in Phoenixville, Pennsylvania. Find her online at

Healing the Mother Wound Online Retreat

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Online guided retreat.

5 “lessons” to be completed in an 8-hour day, or over the course of several days.

Lessons, Guided Meditation, Journaling, Healing Rituals and Attunements.

Facilitated by Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, OPM, MATS.

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As women, our most intimate and foundational relationship is with our mothers. Our relationship with our mother is complicated at best, and has made us who we are – for better or for worse. Whether our mother is our best friend or our enemy, no one escapes the mother wound.

The mother wound is the original wound of humanity, taking root at the moment of our birth when we are suddenly cast out of an experience of union into the experience of separation. This perception of separation is the cause of all suffering and conflict in the human condition. The human journey is about healing this wound of separation and the ability of our mother’s to mother us, in the way that we need, is dependent on how she has healed her own mother wound. For many, if not most, this wound remains unhealed and is carried down generation after generation after generation until someone decides to do something about it.

This guided retreat is your opportunity to do something about healing the mother wound. Healing the mother wound frees us to transcend the challenges of the mother/daughter relationship which then allows us to live more fully in our own truth. No longer carrying the burden of our mother’s unacknowledged shame, or bearing the wounds of our mother’s projections, we are able to shine our own light in the world.  Healing the mother wound transforms not only our relationship with our own mothers, but transforms the entire ancestral lineage, healing all those who have gone before us and those who will come after us, including our own daughters and sons.

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Temple of the Magdalene Weekly Newsletter – FREE Sample

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May 14, 2017

Fifth Sunday of Easter


Beloved: Come to him, a living stone, rejected by human beings but chosen and precious in the sight of God, and, like living stones, let yourselves be built into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. For it says in Scripture: Behold, I am laying a stone in Zion, a cornerstone, chosen and precious, and whoever believes in it shall not be put to shame. Therefore, its value is for you who have faith, but for those without faith: The stone that the builders rejected has become the cornerstone, and A stone that will make people stumble, and a rock that will make them fall. They stumble by disobeying the word, as is their destiny. You are “a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people of his own, so that you may announce the praises” of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

1 PT 2: 4-9


Amen, amen, I say to you, whoever believes in me will do the works that I do, and will do greater ones than these, because I am going to the Father.”

John 14: 12


Additional Readings:

Acts 6: 1-7

PS 33: 1-2, 4-5, 18-19

Jn 14: 1-12


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 We Are the Temple

For those who call Jesus teacher, we are invited to follow Jesus’ example, adhere to his teachings, and most importantly, put into practice what he modeled.

What Jesus modeled was the path to being fully human. (Read my blog this week, Enlightenment Means Being Fully Human HERE.) This is the stone that was rejected by the institutions that were threatened by individual human sovereignty – the Roman government and some (the vocal minority) ruling members of the Temple hierarchy. Jesus and his teachings were rejected by popular culture (and they still are today), but they remain the cornerstone upon which each of us have the opportunity to fully embody our true Divine selves in human form – realizing the fullness of our Oneness with God in Love.

When we allow Jesus’ teachings and example to become the cornerstone of our lives, we ascend the ladder of human transformation and then descend by bringing these lessons into our human experience. It is in becoming fully embodied (self-actualized) that we then become like Jesus and are able to accomplish “even greater things.”

In this, WE become the temple. Not a temple built by human hands. Not an institution with man-made dogma or doctrine keeping us small. Instead, we come into our own sovereignty as Divinely human Kings and Queens. In our Oneness with God, we become the rulers of our own lives, allowing the Divine within to guide our steps and unfold our path so that we might fulfill the purpose for which we came.

What Does Your Temple Look Like?


Spiritual Practice – Building Your Temple

For this week’s spiritual practice you will need a blank sheet of paper and a box of Crayola crayons.

While listening to the following music, on the blank sheet of paper, draw your Temple. Envision your Divine self as completely embodied in your human form.  What do you look like as your fully embodied Divine self?  What does your Soul look like when it comes fully into your human form?


 Authentic Freedom

Humility is the hallmark of a fully embodied human being. When we realize our Oneness with God, we also realize our smallness compared to the infinite nature of that which we call “God.”  We realize that it is only in our connection with the Divine that great works can be done through us and in this, all credit goes to God.  In this I am reminded of Paul’s letter to the Philippians:

Let the same mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus,

who, though he was in the form of God,     did not regard equality with God     as something to be exploited, but emptied himself,     taking the form of a slave,     being born in human likeness. And being found in human form,    he humbled himself     and became obedient to the point of death—     even death on a cross.

Phil 2: 5-8


Think of one thing in your life or in the world that strikes awe and wonder in you over the infinite and magnificent nature of God? How can one even compare with this?

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A New Rosary for a New World

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The rosary is a traditional Catholic devotion and mantra meditation/prayer using a specific formation of (mala) beads. The intention of rosary prayer is to attune our hearts and minds to that of Mother Mary (who among other titles is called “Divine Mother” in the Catholic tradition), and to invite her intercession in our lives.  If you were raised Catholic, you are familiar with this meditation/prayer practice.

Praying the rosary is a beautiful way to cultivate peace in our minds and in our hearts. Through rote repetition, meditation on the words and phrases and through the tactile sensation produced by moving our fingers from bead to bead, we are brought out of our restless minds and into the peace that dwells within our own Immaculate Hearts (another title for Mother Mary).

Since the time that Mother Mary imparted the rosary practice on St. Dominic (1214), millions, perhaps billions, of people have devoted themselves to its practice. In every Marian apparition since, Mary has implored her children to pray the rosary for the sake of peace in our world.  What the recipients of the Marian apparitions didn’t realize was that it was their own inner peace Mary was referring to, with the larger vision that peace in our world is dependent on people finding peace in their own hearts first.

While the rosary continues to be honored as sacred among devout, practicing Catholics, for many who were raised Catholic but no longer consider themselves part of the Church, the rosary often falls into disuse. The reason many give is that they can no longer utter prayers that speak of the separation out of which the Catholic Church was born.  Instead, they are looking for more inclusive images of the Divine, and for belief in a Divine whose love does not have to be earned, and one who loves without condition – the Divine about whom Jesus spoke.

It is for these people that Our Blessed Mother imparts a new rosary – a rosary that speaks of inclusion, that honors all images of the Divine as sacred, that recognizes the Divine that dwells within us and seeks to be known in the world through us. Mary asks that the new intention of the rosary be for the purposes of:

  • Cultivating our own inner peace.
  • Attuning our minds and hearts to the Divine (in whatever form we experience it).
  • That we offer ourselves to be vessels through which Divine love and the Divine purpose of love be made manifest in our world.

As we pray the new rosary, Mother Mary offers her loving guidance and support so that we might fulfill the purpose the Divine has set forth for us – as she was able to do in her own life. In addition, all those saints who went before us and who dedicated themselves to the Mother offer their support as well, including:  Bernadette Soubirous, Catherine of Siena, Catherine Laboure, Joan of Arc, Hildegard of Bingen, Clare of Assisi, Teresa of Avila, Therese Lisieux, Edith Stein, Dorothy Day, and Mother Teresa of Calcutta.

Thank you for your dedication to this practice and through your intercession, changing our world from fear into love!

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From Mother Mary through me to you!

Lauri Ann Lumby,

Modern Magdalene Priestess


Enlightenment Means Being Fully Human

Our Western culture has done a great disservice to the idea of enlightenment. As is often the case in Western culture, that which is meant to invite us deeper into the human experience has become a vehicle for escape.

Enlightenment is not about transcending the human experience so that one might always know peace and happiness, rejecting anything that might disturb that peace – especially that which might be emerging from within us. Instead, enlightenment is about being, and learning to be, fully human.

Enlightened people experience anger. Enlightened people grieve in the face of loss.  Enlightened people become resentful, frustrated, impatient, worried, anxious and afraid.  The difference is the way in which these emotions and experiences are expressed.  Those who are moving along the path of enlightenment have learned to recognize these feelings when they arise, honor them, and give themselves time and space for processing (either alone or with another).  Those who are not on this journey either reject or suppress these feelings within themselves, or they project these feelings onto another, in this, making themselves or the other the enemy.  Those on the path of enlightenment respond with loving compassion and presence.  Those, not on the path, react – typically in some negative or violent way.

Let’s use Jesus as an example: Jesus became angry when temple practices were financially benefitting the rich while taking from the poor.  Jesus became frustrated and impatient when Peter wanted to make him a king.  Jesus wept when he learned his friend Lazarus had died.  Jesus grieved when betrayed and abandoned by his closest friends. Jesus was terrified in the face of certain death.  He bargained with God, hoping to be spared his fate. He suffered pain. Jesus doubted and felt abandoned by God as he hung on the cross.

If Jesus felt all these things, then why should we expect anything different from ourselves? Enlightenment is not about escaping the human condition.  It is learning how to be fully human – to be fully present with it all and allowing it move through us.  As Jesus came to show us, it is in being fully human that we are truly free.

(A little aside… very suspicious of anyone who tells you they are enlightened. Humility is the true mark of enlightenment, and an enlightened person would never claim this for themselves for they know that enlightenment is not something to be attained.)


Guided Meditations all $13.00 or less!

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I’m so excited to share with you my latest guided meditations/soul activations. All are available online and all are priced at $13.00 or less!  (Click on the images below to learn more and register for the “course”.)  These courses support your soul’s journey and provide space for you to connect more fully with your true Divine self. Register now and tell a friend.  🙂

Rite of the Sepulchre: Supports you in releasing that which is no longer life-giving and prepares you for receiving the new that is trying to come into your life:

Divine Embodiment: A guided meditation to facilitate the full embodiment of your true Divine self while also balancing the Divine masculine and Divine Feminine within you.

Book of Life: Guided meditation which activates and attunes you to your own Book of Life where you may seek and receive Divine guidance.

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